My life is very strange and extremely complex.
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I’m becoming so stressed right now. I can’t concentrate. I feel like I’ve forgotten everything but I know I haven’t. It’s crap. Ach well.. today I got up in time and acutally got the bus. First period was Modern Studies which I hate, hate, hate then English was annoyed and pissed me off. I just feel like I’m giving so much and getting nothing back. I just want to go in, sit down, work, work, work and then get up go out and spend all my free periods working too. But instead to please the rest of the time wasters we had to make a stupid board game.. ridiculous.
Anyway, In my four free periods I stuck to my check-list for revision and got it all done. I’m just about to start the stuff I prepared for myself at home yesterday so that I can continue with my studies. I’m just so glad that I’ve managed to get an offer but now it’s the most incredible amount of stress just to get one C! It’s a joke and a half!
Ach well, if I work hard enough I’ll get it!
What I achieved today:
- Got up in time.
- Made it to both classes
- Paid attention
- Finished my check-list for revision.
- Finished Eco-Crafts, finally.
- Learnt a new word.
- Decided what I’m going to do with my life if things don’t turn out.
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Aww today was a fail. It was horrible.
Firstly, I totally slept in. I got up at 9.20 thinking it was 7.20. So I had to rush and get ready for school and I missed Modern Studies. But, I made it in time for english so it was okay. I then decided in my two free periods that I was going to drop Biology, so I went down to Mr. Hughes who totally understood my reasons and let me drop it because he trusted me to work all the time which is lovely. I spent my four free hours studying away, and I also tried to fit an extra half hour in at lunch time but Jason decided that he would trouble me with his problems. So I had to listen to his problems… they are all so selfish. I don’t want to have everyone elses family and friends problems. I have enough of my own… really? I don’t need to be worrying about him and how his aunt died. I suppose everyone needs sometone to lean on and I lean on quite a lot of people. Aw man.. I’m so nasty.
Anyway, my day was lovely. Today marnie walked me to work and I was meant walk Roisin but I totally forgot. But me and Marnie had a wonderful talk and it was lovely. Work tonight was stressful. I had to do dairy which is so bad. It’s rediculous.. there is just so much stock and it takes sooo much time to pull them all out oh and that fucking date code diary! shiit! Then, I had to fuck about with the 9pm gapscan shit and like eugh. Someone else had been scanning and fucked it up, or it could have been the system. I like to think its a person though because I like to have someone to blame. Anyway it took me half an hour to fix that so like it was wasted time.. fucking good job i’d finished prs.
What I have achieved today:
- I finished a close reading in class instead of watching a video.. which I would have done if this wasn’t so important.
- I made a good decision towards my future.
- I worked hard and got a lot of studying done.
- I managed to motivate myself to the library.
- I finished pr’s at work.
- I fixed gapscan.
- I learned how to check product details on the computer.
- I learned a stock control log in off by heart.
- I made someone smile.
The fact that I wrote a massive acheives list today shows that this was a good day. But really it wasn’t. I’m proud of what I acheived today but I felt like rubbish until Marnie cheered me up :)
Today is so busy. I got up at half past seven and started to get ready. Wearing my hair in a high bun today, I like it. Once I got ready I just sat about really. Nothing to do. I felt sick once I got to school and just wanted to come home, like I usually do. However, I went to the library first period and started to study for English and second period I couldn’t decide if I wanted to teach the first years or study; but I chose the first years. I was going to drop a subject today but I wasn’t sure which one, I think I want to drop Biology. Then at lunchtime I went to the library half way through to study before my essay and then I sat it. I get so stressed over stuff like this! I couldn’t sleep last night because of it, like I was up until 4 or something, rediculous. Work then started at 5 and Marnie wasn’t there to walk me up but usually he does. I love just walking and chatting with him, makes me sammmile.
Today I am shattered.
What I achieved today:
- Studied for English - Disgrace
- Tought some first years something new
- Tought my first class without a teacher being there. ( suprisingly went well)
- Did a good job of timed essay ( I think)
- Actually stayed awake long enough to go to work.
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